I just watched Eat, Pray, Love with Julia Roberts (I love her) She travels to Italy to eat, India to meditate and Bali to Love. She is on a quest to find herself after realizing she has lived her life fitting in through her relationships. Naturally it got me thinking about Life & Love. (and Spaghetti )
I think a lot of people, maybe everyone at some point, live their lives trying to do it right. The right marriage, the right career, the right car, house, talent etc...We should all stop and spend some time looking at ourselves and see what is right for me?
I wondered for a second, what does this mean for me. Do I have to go off on my own and find myself? I have "always" been in a relationship (married at 18) Because of that my searching and growing has always been in perspective of another person. I never went through an independant, live on my own, stage. I went straight from my parents house to my married house (apartment). For a little while I thought that was a bad thing, I thought I missed out or that to be a strong woman meant I should be an independant one. Don't worry that though didn't last long cuz I realized- that is part of what makes me, me. I love to be close to the people I love. I don't like to be alone. A couple hours of alone time every once in a while is just fine with me. I got married young because that was what I wanted. Part of me always knew that being me meant being part of a we. (That is so cheesy I am laughing at myself) But that's part of me. It is a strength and a weakness but that's ok. I'm learning the balance.
I am blessed to be married to a man that loves me for me, and he helps me understand when I'm not quite sure I understand myself.
Every experience in life gives us the opportunity to find more of ourselves. To choose what we believe, what is important to us, and how we are going to respond. How we choose to respond is what makes us who we are today. We don't have to go anywhere for that.
(Don't get me wrong, I am so planning a trip around the world still)
I love your insight. That book/movie really spoke to me because I really value processing and the idea of healing. I spent the summer after J & I split cooking, literally, I cooked all the time,almost through a whole barefoot contessa cookbook. I set up my little apartment the way I wanted, hung a pot rack up and made things...I dont know, that plus the gym was kind of my therapy process. So the eating was there, the gym and realizing I could be strong again was my version of meditation, and the love part was a scary wonderful leap....I need to see this movie!!! Love ya, miss you!
ReplyDeleteYou are a very strong women. How else could you be married to the crazy man you are married to.
ReplyDeleteWe love who you are.